2 December 2011

Time Out
Back under the starry sky of the Drugstore cave, having spent a pretty emotional month, overwhelmed by personal stuff.
Wasn't it Lennon who said that life is what happens, while you're busy making other plans?
I guess, sometimes, that pretty much sums it up.
Just as we were gearing ourselves up for a grand finale to our lovely year, with a xmas party extravaganza at the Scala, my father was taken ill - and my life overtaken by a tsunami of events beyond my control.
I try very hard to keep personal/family/work and lovers-life quite separate from the public Drugstore sarabande, but every now and again, and inevitably, the lines get crossed and boundaries blur-up.
So, the Scala gig was put away, as it simply didn't feel right to be celebrating under the circumstances - (needless to say, the few hundred who bought tix for the show, will be refunded) - and I took a few weeks away from this Drugstore life, to hurdle-up within my broken family circle.
I think it was the right thing to do - I just needed a little time and space for some life-atonement.
Funny isn't it?, when you're in your 20s, death is an impossibility.
Then, in your 30s, you start to casually worry about it, but think you got it under control by swapping 'sugar-puffs' for organic muesli.
Now, in your 40s, as your next of kin start to crumble, you do see it for the first time - just beyond the horizon, on that deserted beach where all souls stand upon:
the dark dark light that will soon engulf us all.
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4 comments:

Lex said...

I think that as we age, we become indeed more and more aware of the value of our life, of the lifespan already spent (and sometime we feel some years were kinda wasted and it's time to try and veer off the old path, but that's another story...) and the fact that we've got but one life so we should make the most of it and also listen to our heart, sometimes over reason...

I'm happy that you feel you have done the right choice and could spend some time with your family. It's really good to have you back! :) x x x

isabel monteiro said...

yay yay, wise words from Miss Lex!
x x x

Lex said...

Trying to figure out own masterplan for 2012 - long way to go on the yellow brick road! ;) xxx

isabel monteiro said...

lol - yep, that's one mighty long and winding road, isnt't it? we just keep stumbling forward regardless.
x x x